Watching stars

Watching stars

Don’t explain what it was

Let’s just watch stars,

Like it’s our last time,

In the world where nothing lasts.

We’re always forced to play roles,

With fake smiles heart grows cold,

But I still don’t hate this world,

If still there are stars, there’s hope.

We may never meet again,

Don’t tell me, I’m aware,

Stop justifying your every step,

It’s already a crime that we’re here.

I care for you, even if it’s wrong,

To care for another living soul…

Don’t explain what it was,

A star falling down you cheek,

Don’t be afraid to feel,

You’re not weak, you’re real.

© Laura Dambite, 2015

No matter how many years pass by, I won’t lose the things you gave me, those memories are a part of my beating heart… they humanize me… they make me real…

Candle’s flame

Candle’s flame

A flame of a candle,

Still keeps the warm in your heart,

And it’s light,

Keeps sparks in your eyes.

But there’s no one inside,

For a so long,

Only remains of you,

Trying to imitate your life.

But your lips smile,

As no one knows the truth

And brain create lies,

As the only thing it remains to do.

And you still receive love,

But you can’t give it back,

As the wounded soul,

Only gains pain instead.

You’re a candle,

And you’re running out of time,

But no one sees how you’re burning down,

They only see your light.

© Laura Dambite, 2013.

Please, please never burn out…

In the rain

In the rain

Stay with me in the rain,

It’s cold,

So am I,

But you’re the fire,

I will never be able to touch…

So different,

Yet, we cross our paths,

Only to see

How our worlds collide,

There’s nothing more.

Because I will never be like you,

Alive,

With a burning heart,

Loved by life,

My smile will never awake a smile.

But let me embrace you

Through the rain,

If this feeling is real,

There nothing can stand in between,

Only reality…

© Laura Dambite, 2013.

It’s raining again, I like how rain opens doors that lead to days full of happiness and pain, to memories I can’t escape… 

The sea of memories

The sea of memories

Sailing through waves of memories,

Waiting until I’ll start to live…

I’m lost in this sea,

It’s a raindrop, but it’s an ocean to me…

I’ve found nothing worth to love,

The sea showed me, people come and go…

But it didn’t swallowed my believes,

My ship is a wreck, still it swims…

Sun is burning me alive,

Still I stand and keep the land in eye…

Someday I’ll reach that shore,

Even if my journey leaves me sore…

I’m not afraid to sink,

I need to stop waiting, start living…

Hope will be my guiding wind,

Sails already rising…

Sailing through my memories,

Waves of blue and green…

And one day, I believe,

I’ll reach the land of reality…

© Laura Dambite, 2014.

So this is where I’m now in my live… I’m ready to leave my past behind, to sail through storms… I’m not waiting anymore… It’s time to start living, not existing… I’m truly happy, that I finally understand it…

Childish fears and autumn leaves

Childish fears and autumn leaves

You asked me once…

What if autumn takes my heart?

Covers it with leaves

And colors the way it likes?

So I won’t be able to recognize it?

What if I’ll be heartless?

Living, but loving no one,

What if I turn faceless?

Like one of the leaves in the Fall…

No one will know the difference,

Who can tell leaves apart?

They all are nameless,

So will be I…

And I’ll cry with the rain for my heart,

Till autumn returns it cold and numb,

So winter could steal it, again,

Leaving me with empty hands.

But where’s your heart?

Is it in your chest, beating?

Or spring took it?

And summer burned it?

And I had nothing to answer…

© Laura Dambite, 2014.

Where this came from, I don’t know, it’s autumn’s fault… I think… Just remembered how a child asked me such things…

She was afraid that seasons change and her heart’s changing too, that one day she’ll wake and won’t be able to separate lie from truth… that she won’t recognize herself and others won’t tell, what’s wrong with her, when she looks the same, won’t see the change, she’s going through…

Is she me? Is she you? Is she someone we know or knew? I know the answer, so do you…

Black bonds

Black bonds

ADORE ME!

PRAISE ME!

LOVE ME!

FEED ME!

BEFORE I’LL HURT YOU AGAIN,

BEFORE I’LL TROW YOUR HEART AWAY,

BEFORE I’LL SPLIT YOUR SKULL IN HALF,

BEFORE I’LL DEVOUR YOUR LIFE!     

BE MY SUN,

BE MY MOON,

BEFOFE MY GUN,

KILLS THE FUN!

DON’T DEAR TO IGNORE ME,

DON’T DEAR TO LEAVE,

DON’T DEAR TO DEACEVE ME,

DON’T DEAR TO LIVE…

WITHOUT ME

YOU’RE NOTHING!

COME BACK HERE,

NOW!!!

Please,

I beg you...

I need you…

I love you…

Please…

© Laura Dambite, 2014.

This is how I see abusive relationships and I’ll never understand why people still come back to the ones, who hurt them or try to save their relationships… like there is not enough pain in this world already. I’m not speaking only about love, about friendships too…

It not really a poem, it’s just some expression of feelings, I don’t know…

She still exists

She still exists

She still storms,

In her own skies,

Even if the white clouds

Made her powerless.

She still prays,

To sail through all lies,

Even if society

Made her faithless.

She still believes,

Promises will come to life,

Even if her friends

Made her trustless.

She still waits,

Her heart to beat,

Even if his words

Made her lifeless.

© Laura Dambite, 2014.

It’s so easy to break down people, to take away everything from them and watch them struggle, crawl and still try… I will never understand, accept, justify the ones hurting other, physically or with words, because no reason is big enough to harm another human being. Pain creates only pain.

I adore the ones, who went through hell and did not lost their will to live, who still can find happiness in small things, who can smile, hope and believe… But if the hell broke them, I believe there’s away to heal them, to return the sun in their skies.

So, please, never lose hope, you’ll get trough everything… please still try and move forward… better days will come.